I have learned that the world and the people on it are crazy. I stayed at home the first couple of weeks and trusted that it was the right thing to do, I found out that I hate being in the house but enjoyed the rest. I am strong and can put up with a lot being put on me, or rather taken away.  

I realized we go away to college for a reason, we weren’t meant to be with our families for this long. It is nice to spend time before I leave but not stuck in the house together. I couldn’t stay cooped up and scared from this virus forever, so I started seeing my friends I had already been with before the shelter in place happened. I am a full extrovert so being told I couldn’t connect and be with my people wasn’t handled well.  

I miss school, I miss being celebrated for my accomplishments. I miss seeing other things on the news besides this virus, I’m tired of that being the only thing people talk about. I miss people knowing the difference between the truth and lies, false and fake news. I miss citizens giving their President and governors the respect they deserve; they are doing their best and what they believe in.  

I understand that nurses and doctors are working their butts off, but are they really risking their lives since in California there is only a 0.03% chance of dying from the virus, and .1% chance in New York. In 2017, the chance of dying from the flu was .13%. Why are we completely shutting down our country when the flu is more deadly? I know much worse things are happening right now, but so many people are having to miss out on huge milestones in their life for a virus less deadly than the flu. There are also huge rises in domestic violence cases, more people with depression, anxiety, suicidal thoughts, numbers of molestations have increased.  

I will not miss people saying how people will remember our class and we will have a good story to tell. Who wants to tell that story and have these memories? I know my friends and I surely don’t. I wanted a fun last year before I move out and to make memories at school and with my friends. 

My dream is for this to be over and the world stop freaking out. I want to go to college, and if that gets taken away from me, I seriously don’t know what I would do. 

When will this nightmare end?